Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Tarot story II: the queen of Cups (mermaid)

(Relationship spread, Cat People Tarot.)
Click for DetailsOur little Page of Cups (see previous story below) has now grown up. As the water of water, I embody the essence of femininity, for yes, gentle readers, I can reveal that she equates to myself!

I look quite youthful for a mature woman, or so they tell me kindly. Here I find myself in my native element at last, and everything goes just swimmingly! I haven't had to give up my fish tail to walk, and dance, as on daggers on dry ground, in the foreign elements of air and earth. I feel untouched by pain and tragedy when I dive deep. My best friends seem the dolphins (earth's 2nd most intelligent species, after us), who also hold the secret of ch'i, breath, and how to hold it for up to 1/2 an hour at a time; they have also saved my life in a moment of shamanistic spiritual emergency, by reminding me to breathe! They also laugh and play and communicate with each other all the time, and perhaps I, as the mermaid, telepathically with them? I have become a marine psychologist, to the cetaceans, you see, but do not always feel sure which of us amounts to the counsellor, and which the clients. I can tell you, you can establish some sort of telepathic link with such species through guided visualization/meditation. And remember not only to breathe, through your pain and crises, but also, like those angels called dolphins, to see life as a game!

Click for DetailsThe loss of my first love, as described in my first story felt like another death, but I have now become so used to the constant transformations of "little deaths", that death has become another dear friend to me. I can even affirm that, galactically speaking, the power of death guides me! Clearing away the old to make way for the new, death seems the cosmic sanitation engineer. Unexpected changes, losses, failures, all cause an abrupt change of the old self, and not necessarily physical death, though I have found myself on the brink of suicide a few times. It can come in the ending of a familiar situation or friendship, or the loss of income or financial security. Either way, it always spells the beginning of new era.
Click for DetailsI found the true love of my life in a truly grounded shaman.

His grounding cord plunged deep into the crystal core of Gaia herself, grounding and centering him.
His recommended spiritual practice amounted to performing the Qabalistic Middle Pillar ritual on a regular, daily basis, to receive the white light in at the crown of the head, the lavendar at his throat, the yellow at his heart, purple around his loins, and to see the black earth as a small sphere beneath his feet... ADONAI HA ARETZ! LORD OF THE EARTH! (his true mantra). He took refuge in visualizing pyramid power around him daily, and knew that the kundalini fire cannot burn you, if you properly "earth" yourself .

Click for DetailsI found his company a respite after the heady adventure of the Knight of Cups, like a rest after illness which allowed me to recuperate. He felt to me a haven of calm and repose, not saying much, but his solitude refreshed and replenished me. We often retreated to his island hideaway, in temporary seclusion, for a bit of quiet R & R. We had a stormy crossing in his little curragh, a leather boat like St Brendan's, of the long 'navigatio'; the waves rose high and threatened to engulf our tiny bark, but the power he summoned remained with us, and the little feather he placed as a meditation focus, with a small seed of amethyst, remained unruffled on the deck. The sobering energy of the white light he invoked made our tiny boat into a haven of calm and safety, even as the sea and the winds continued to moan and roar. He made even a fragile little boat tossed on the high seas into a temple.
Click for DetailsHow many times I thought I had spiritually "come home", from the early "born-again" fundamentalist days, to becoming a "born-again pagan" and Sufi adventurer. Sometimes he had the prophetic zeal of Elijah, which in turn consumed me, to "come home to a place I'd never seen before". Do all these "born-again" phases amount only to "just phases", unlike my "feminist phase" which has remained with me lifelong? And yet look at me, now that the goddess Hera has awakened in me, as even a "born-again wife", when I never thought myself the marrying kind before! Do they all just amount to deliria of Elijah's fevered imagination, yet more mad "chariots of fire" drawn by the tigers of wrath, painted on the walls of his island-cave and refuge, glowing eerily in the firelight? Could it just amount to another hobby-tiger, this new bee buzzing in my bonnet? We did everything in a whirl, from Zenith Pleiadian colour healing to Sufi whirling, drunk in the mystic "tavern of ruin". "Elijah, Elijah, what do you do here, keeper of the flame of the heart?" I ask.
And he answers, "Anything, anything, as long it keeps the fire of the heart still burning."
Only the transmuted gold will survive, when we have passed all the straw through the fire.
*I fell into a burning ring (or abyss) of fire...*
Click for DetailsAnd yet one day he sent me away, wanting a more complete solitude. That drove me into severe depression, and even thoughts of, and attempts at suicide. Dark night of the soul: give me enough rope, and I will hang myself, or take enough Tolvon to go to sleep, permanently. Transit or return of Saturn, the greater malefic? She seems such a beautiful planet, with those rings; only sometimes she just feels her distance from the sun, as the love of her life. I had to take the long view, get a cosmic perspective, even put on a Leonard Cohen record to cheer myself up. After all, what would this separation mean in 200 years?
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And yet he says he continues to think the World of me, and I still mean the world to him! But he continues to see himself a servant of all Gaia's children, working for the liberation of all sentient beings.
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He didn't like the cool blues of Tom Waits, said it seemed too sexual, but then at first I thought the same about Ephemera, saying they amounted to mere "porn-girls", when he thought their music the purest of the pure... De gustibus non disputandum! The blues, or "song sung blue" seem only for those who, like Cat Stevens, "never knew what love is, until they got hurt" (The Hurt). Funny thing, though, listening to or, better still, playing them, you don't feel all that hurt, although they seem all about hurt. "And before you know it, it starts to feel good" (Neil Diamond, Song Sung Blue). You can even play cool blues on a broken guitar with one string missing, and you don't have to appear black, to sing with a black man's voice (ask Tom Waits, or even Elvis!) ...Still, ours does seem a 'funny' sort of marriage, doesn't it, with him still thinking of me as his soror mystica and all, and in an even 'funnier' way, I think of him exactly the same way!

5 Comments:

Blogger Sebastian Aristos said...

After skim reading this post, I am excited about reading it in more detail. I noticed that there was a very lyrical tone, however it seems couched in enigma, which I must admit I quite like too, especially since it seems that there are references to me in it too. I will revisit this post when I am not falling asleep at the PC, and look forward to being able to piece together the clues that the cards offer all those of us who read and enjoy your writing.

Love,
Sebi

12:59 pm  
Blogger asgif666 said...

Hmm, you have still only skim read it, Sebi, and not yet got down to chapter 1, the page of Cups story below? I felt especially proud of it at the time, and did intend it as a stimulus for your own creative writing ;-P

10:41 am  
Blogger Sebastian Aristos said...

And so on to part two, huh ? I'm glad to see that part two has a happy beginning, as befits the lessons that the Page of Cups offers.

Thank-you too for writing this as an inspiration to me and for my creative writing. You know that the 'creative process' can sometimes be particularly challenging, as can the process of creating our day, and our lives in general. In any case, I am sure that working with the archetypes in the tarot can help us understand not only ourselves, but our relationship to other people.

I feel like I need a little guidance and direction in terms of my present relationship, so hopefully this will be my opportunity and forum to be able to explore such issues.

One comment about the first card in the story before I begin, though. Do you really think we are more intelligent than dolphins. Surely our cosmic hubris at ransacking the planet and reaching plague proportions qualifies us as 'stupid', doesn't it ? I would be nice to think that there is someone out there who is smarter than us ! Perhaps this is why I find the idea of Pleiadians and interdimensional entities so comforting, when confronted with 'man's inhumanity to man' and all that. Good advice associated with the end of the first part of the story, about how dolphins can be healing for us in our guided meditations. I know that the Sirians say that dolphins have a major role to play in healing sexual issues for people. ( I wish I could be more specific here, because people other than you Claire will probably not have any idea what I am talking about ).

It is interesting that the Death card has come up again in exactly the same position in the same ( related ) reading. Is progressing from one lesson in the tarot to the next always a question of having to go through the process of change and assimilation that the Death card represents ?

Good to see that you have reconciled yourself with the Death card. I am reminded of your interest in 'feng shui', which would seem to embody the concept of the power of 'clearing out the old to make way for the new', wouldn't it ?

In terms of the artwork on the card in this pack, it seems like a macabre version of the Fool card, doesn't it ?

OK, good to see that the King of Pentacles has such a spiritual interpretation here. Having been overly concerned with issues of abundance versus poverty consciousness recently, I am obviously being encouraged to look at things from a more spiritual perspective. Good advice indeed, and also empowering to think that we do indeed have a huge amount of control over how we are able to balance our energy on a daily basis. ( I am inspired to the point of wanting to do a session of yoga after this, perhaps after I have posted the scan of the Alister Crowley tarot cards currently waiting to be explored in my scanner ).

A thought about my own life here, and my own relationship. ( See Claire, your story has acheived its desired goal, I feel, by inspiring your readers to challenge their goals and desires and expected outcomes, and to think about what they - we - really desire. I am dealing with the heady, violent mood swings of the Knight of Cups, and feel that I am on a bit of a dramatic roller coaster ride with a 'ferryman' who ensures that I am 'cycled' through this every morning, before coming to the peace that the King of Pentacles represents. I wonder how the King of Pentacles can inspire me to live with this peace as a permanent state, regardless of the turnings of the Wheel of Fortune !

I am liking this King of Pentacles dude more and more if what he offers is the calm, peace, and relaxation of the 'four of swords'. And yet the excitement of the 'Seven of Wands' holds its own appeal too, though hopefully one would be able to enjoy its journey with the peace of mind of a King, and the feeling of faith that one is where one ought to be, and does not need to struggle to acheive some elusive goal or state of being.

A relief to see that the World follows the 'Nine of Swords'. Too much thinking and not enough meditating and simply 'being in the now' can be deleterious to one's mental health, I guess.

My goodness, what an enigmatic ending ? I can't help but be a little puzzled here, especially awed at the way our realities seem to so closely reflect each other's. Is this because we have the same type of relationship you talk about in the last part, that of 'soror mystica' and whatever the male equivalent of that is ? I guess that because you are working with archetypes, they seem relevant to me as well, and I feel that my story is so closely connected with yours. I feel that perhaps the answer lies in the 'Wounded Healer' paradigm, and hope that in order to 'heal myself', it will not be necessary for me to become 'The Hermit'. Perhaps, though, I should see 'The Hermit' as a necessary stage to attaining the wisdom of 'The Hierophant', and not feel threatened by the challenges that the Hermit poses. Time for a prayer, I think, but will need to meditate to ensure that I am asking for what I really want. Time to look within, I think.

By the way, I love the reference to the Zenith Pleiadian Colour Healing. Nice little touch too, of putting the graphic with the links to the three web sites about perfect lovers, and tarot and live psychic readings. Did you check any of them out yourself ? Don't forget to let us all know, as this would be the perfect addendum to your story so far, obviously a work in progress - and a work of light which can inspire many others as well as myself.

And so I will close this comment now, and prepare to scan the cards that I have chosen for my scanner, which obviously seemed destined for further and greater scrutiny. Perhaps these will become the basis for my very own story, and will guide me to the place of calm so desired, and so heralded by the King of Pentacles.

More to follow at http://sebi-aristos.blogspot.com

Love,
Sebi
XXX

4:29 am  
Blogger asgif666 said...

>I feel like I need a little guidance and direction in terms of my present relationship, so hopefully this will be my opportunity and forum to be able to explore such issues.

Can always do you a(nother) reading, Sebi, although mythos shies away from relationship readings, figuring that, if you need to ask, it seems probably better to split? ;-P

Permanent state? No such thing!! (saith the Death card) ;-))

Hehe, thought you would find the 7 of Wands exciting, Sebi, which seems why I put in Zenith Pleiadian Colour Healing, just for you (according to Tarot Cafe discussion yesterday, the Star also has a Pleiadian connection) lol!

>A relief to see that the World follows the 'Nine of Swords'. Too much thinking and not enough meditating and simply 'being in the now' can be deleterious to one's mental health, I guess.

Excellent interpretation, Sebi, imho; see, you can have your flashes of brilliant insight as well! ;-))

Ending = what happens when your hubby becomes your 'soror mystica'. Sometimes it seems necessary for us all to become 'The Hermit', whether in line with our personal preferences or not ;-P

>Perhaps, though, I should see 'The Hermit' as a necessary stage to attaining the wisdom of 'The Hierophant', and not feel threatened by the challenges that the Hermit poses.

Indeed, another excellent interpretation! You seem red-hot tonight! ;-))

>One comment about the first card in the story before I begin, though. Do you really think we are more intelligent than dolphins.

Anthropocentric evaluation, of course; no, not necessarily my own... I agree!! ;-))

>I know that the Sirians say that dolphins have a major role to play in healing sexual issues for people.

And, boy, do I know some people who need "sexual healing" (nod to Marvin Gaye), including both of us? lol

>t is interesting that the Death card has come up again in exactly the same position in the same ( related ) reading. Is progressing from one lesson in the tarot to the next always a question of having to go through the process of change and assimilation that the Death card represents ?

Um, because old friends, like Death and John this morning (again!), always turn up at opportune or inopportune moments? I also amount to one galactically "guided by the power of Death", remember? Also, remember, my last reading re you and Aidan ended in Death as the outcome card (I never forget a Death card) ;-))

>Good to see that you have reconciled yourself with the Death card. I am reminded of your interest in 'feng shui', which would seem to embody the concept of the power of 'clearing out the old to make way for the new', wouldn't it ?

When did I ever have anything bad to say about the Death card? You may have misunderstood ;-))

9:51 am  
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